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A notebook found shoved under Ryoko's pillow in R1
The first page is a letter from Ryoko to... well, Ryoko. It outlines their situation, explains (in short) that she is suffering from an illness that may effect her memory and encourages her to go to the people she can trust if this is new information to her: Serizawa, Majima, Avenger, Rin and Marcy.
It appears to have been started relatively recently, as it only includes characters remaining in the group from Week 5 onwards. Each person has a page or two dedicated to them, with a brief physical description to identify them by, as if Ryoko was worried she wouldn't recognize anyone without them. Notably, Marcy's is much longer than anyone else's and was written in an obvious hurry. Anyone who saw her at that afterparty will recognize these as the notes she was writing at that time.
There's some notes in it, but it's basically just CR Chart 2: Electric Boogaloo.
The first page is a letter from Ryoko to... well, Ryoko. It outlines their situation, explains (in short) that she is suffering from an illness that may effect her memory and encourages her to go to the people she can trust if this is new information to her: Serizawa, Majima, Avenger, Rin and Marcy.
It appears to have been started relatively recently, as it only includes characters remaining in the group from Week 5 onwards. Each person has a page or two dedicated to them, with a brief physical description to identify them by, as if Ryoko was worried she wouldn't recognize anyone without them. Notably, Marcy's is much longer than anyone else's and was written in an obvious hurry. Anyone who saw her at that afterparty will recognize these as the notes she was writing at that time.
There's some notes in it, but it's basically just CR Chart 2: Electric Boogaloo.
LETTERS... KIND OF
If you come across these letters and I'm not around to scold you for snooping, please make sure they find their way to the people who need to read them.
Chihiro Morimura and Ei Sekigahara are people from my world. They can be found at Sakura High, in Ashitaba City. It's vital that they know I'm [ whatever followed here was scribbled out ] no longer able to pilot my Sentinel.
I'm sorry.
CHIHIRO MORIMURA
I know it should be me. But the Sentinel Project will be able to continue without me and I believe that with people like Yakushiji on your side, you will achieve victory.
If you ever find him, please thank Juro Izumi for me. I never got to do it myself. I'm thankful every day that he saved me and I'm just sorry that I couldn't do it in return.
Thank you.
Former Pilot of Sentinel Unit 14
Ryoko Shinonome
EI SEKIGAHARA
I'm so sorry that this being delivered to you by strangers. I won't waste time and words in this letter by telling you what they've surely already told you. All I can say is that the people delivering this to you are kind and good and you can trust them. Please listen to what they have to say.
With that aside, what I want is to apologize to you. I was the one who dragged you into the Sentinel Project. I know if it wasn't for me, you never would have piloted. I'm sorry that I didn't listen to you when you warned me about Mr. Ida. I should have believed in you. But I let myself be blinded by him instead and for that I will never be able to apologize enough.
Whatever happens to me that makes delivering this letter necessary, try not to let it be your last memory of me. I'd like for you to remember all the summers we spent when we were young doing things like catching bugs and getting into trouble with our parents. If you'd remember me as being carefree and happy like that, then that would make me happiest of all.
I know I don't have any right to ask anything from you now, but I do have a request. Two of the people you should have met – Serizawa-san and Majima-san. Their circumstances are complicated and for various reasons, they have no place to return to. I promised that, once the kaiju were defeated, I would make a place for them in our world. Now that I'm no longer around to do it, you're the only person I can trust to make that happen, Ei-kun.
Please be happy. I no longer have a future in that world, but I want you to have one in my place. I hope it's a shining one.
with loyour big sRyoko
SERIZAWA
Serizawa-san,
There are a lot of things I feel I should apologize to you for. But the last thing you would need to read right now is a long list of my regrets, so I'll keep it to just the one.
I'm sorry that I couldn't keep my promise. I don't make promises like that lightly and yet in the end, I broke it. I will still do everything I can to make sure you have a home to go to at the end of all this – if you find a way to my world, please seek out Chihiro Morimura and Ei Sekigahara. I'm certain they'll do what they can to help you.
I've struggled with what else to say here for a while. I'm not sure either of us are particularly good with being honest in this sort of way. But I want you to know – no one has ever told me that I could be suited for anything other than piloting my Sentinel. I still believe it was something made to protect and not to kill, but the idea that someone as cold and awkward as me could be well suited to helping and healing people means more to me than you'll ever know.
The others will be reaching out to help you after this. Please don't turn away.
Ryoko
MAJIMA
You're an embarrassingly honest sort of person. I don't think that, after all the time we've spent together, it would be much like me at all to be embarrassingly honest in return. But I'll try my best.
I think the world would be a kinder place if there were a few more people like you in it. You were the sort of adult I always told myself that I hated, but if I'd had the chance to become even a little bit more like you when I grew up, that would have been far from the worst thing in the world.
You still have a place where I came from, if you'd like it. If you go with Serizawa-san and find Chihiro Morimura and Ei Sekigahara, then I believe in them to do the right thing for you.
The time we spent together was fun. For all my complaints, I truly did enjoy it.
Ryoko
LALA
It's cruel of me to ask anything of you after leaving you behind, but please don't let yourself be alone after all this. There are few things in the world that are worse and when you're in pain, often, the only thing that can mend the hurting are other people. It took me a very long time to accept that and though I think you're much cleverer than me in that regard, a reminder never hurt.
I truly am glad that we were able to become friends. Please don't ever stop extending that same kindness to the others as you did to me.
The weasel will need caring for, if you're able to do it. I think it would be good for him to stay with someone he's used to. I trust you to care for him.
Thank you.
Ryoko
REX
It feels a little strange to be writing a letter like this when I've already said everything I'd been wanting to say to you. You're an infuriatingly honest person and it makes me be honest with you in turn whether I want to or not – I suspect you wouldn't let me get away with it if I tried to be anything else.
I really did mean what I said to you on that day. Even if I'd forgotten everything else before it had come to this, I would have wanted to be your friend over and over and over again. I'm glad that in the time we had together, it was able to happen even once. However short a time it was, it was still very precious to me.
I truly do hope you and Libra-san will be happy.
Ryoko
PARKER
I'm sorry. This is an unfair letter to leave behind. Or rather, it's unfair for me to be leaving you behind, despite everything. Even if I tell you not to think of this as your fault, I know you probably will. But I've said it anyway, so there.
You're a kind person. And I think you have a heart so big that it hurts you sometimes. In a lot of ways, that's wonderful. But it's heavy, too. The others here care for you just as much as you care for them. Make sure you let them carry it for you, sometimes.
[ There's a blot on the paper here, like Ryoko hesitated for a bit before writing what comes next. ]
I'd never been to a sleepover like that before. I didn't have many friends growing up, especially not girls my age, so it wasn't something I'd ever done. It was loud and busy and fun. I wish we could have had more of them.
Thank you.
Ryoko
RIN
I won't leave you a long emotional letter. I don't really think it's something you need to read.
But I wanted to make sure I thanked you for everything you do. Without you, I really think we might have fallen apart two weeks in.
Let the others take care of you from time to time. If I'm asking in a letter like this, then you have no excuse not to do it.
Ryoko
AVENGER
Maybe this is the wrong thing to say entirely, but I really did admire you. Not for your anger, but the way you used it. I've always been a clumsy, headstrong sort of girl – I get myself into trouble when I see red. I haven't quite learned how to use my anger in the right sort of ways yet. I think things would have gone much differently if I could have been a little bit more like you – the Avenger-san we knew here, however much you'll probably protest against me saying something like that.
It doesn't feel quite right to call us friends. But I am glad that we met.
"Wait and hope". Those are the words you and Tyzias-san gave me. Please take them to heart for yourself as well.
Ryoko